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| If you're Christian, and you're interesting in having a life partner in the future, then you need to listen to these talks.
Obviously, you can choose to listen or not. If you're busy, then the least you can do is save the link for later. But if you do choose to ignore completely and make excuses, then you do so at your own peril...and you'll be doing Satan a nice little favour.
If you think you have everything set and covered, it doesn't matter. Listen anyway.
The Sermons are about Marriage And Men/Women.
The sermon has brought to light many areas of my life that I now know I need to fix more than ever, I hope it does the same for everyone else too.
For the Girls - http://www.marshillchurch.org/media/trial/marriage-and-women
For the Guys - http://www.marshillchurch.org/media/trial/marriage-and-men
I would recommend listening to both, as they do go hand in hand sometimes and it's useful knowing what the other Gender has to go through.
God Bless n have a nice day.
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| ...I wish I could tell her how I feel, without everything blowing up in my face.
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| Well, not feeling the best of the best right now, not happy, not sad, not content, but just...being...
I guess maybe its because I'm aimlessly online. Not doing work yet because I have to meet up with my partner tomorrow (I met her for about 10 seconds but now I've forgotten what she looks like...I hope she doesnt take it too harshly when I tell her that...) for Media Arts to discuss ideas for our Podcast and I have to meet with my Academic Tutor to discuss what I'm going to do with her essay and im not sure if I have an assignment or not for my other English and Media Arts modules =.= So this week should be fun ^^ Though I do have a real fear I may fail this year if I dont start getting my arse into gear =.=
So far, I havnt made any friends on any of my courses, just some people i might talk to and sit with. I dont really mind, but it can get a bit boring just going straight back home and not hanging around chatting rubbish to other people. But ah wells, thats just how it is i guess....maybe i need to make a real effort with people....but then again i never did like to bumlick people so they can like me....hmmm moral dilemma
I haven't been breakin for a while, only entered one or two jams and going to do a charity performance on Friday but no real training to speak of, and the tell tale signs of lack of training such as weak freezes, weak jackhammers, and even lower stamina are all starting to rear their ugleh heads. Started doing conditioning exercises in my room so im not completely gone luckily enough lol Need to really start training hard though
My brains a bit addled now because im not too sure what to type...I think, "how much do I want to reveal about myself?" "How damaging would my thoughts be to the relationships I share with my friends who read my blogs?" So I try to choose my next couple of paragraphs open but closed.
I need to keep my promises I make to Him. Already I have broken a few and the consequences are clearly showing as if for Him to say "yeah, I told you before this will happen, and look, its just happened again." I just hope that I can keep them this time.
One thing Ive learnt is that although a sin is a sin is a sin, sinning, while consciously knowing that you are sinning, is sinning of the worst kind.
And on a more positive note.
You know 2 crap things about liking someone?
1. If they're your friend - Cos at least if its a randomer you can distance yourself from them. But it's your friend, you can either only either grow closer or stay the same.
2. If they've already stated their expectations and prerequisites of a person, and you knowing that you can't live up to them at that moment in time - #
Yeah, the second one is kinda heart crushing, i reckon it could only ever produce the response of "oh" lol
You think to yourself - "Right! I'm going to try and be that guy!" but what if its out of your reach? What if it'll take a long time? What if, by the time you become the kinda of person she was describing then its too late, shes already found someone else?
All these variables and I still can't get her off my mind lol...
Other girls kinda come and go, you fancy them then you dont, they like you but then they dont, but when you come across a special one then they really dont leave your heart that easily...
A friend asked me a few nights ago "why dont you get yourself a girlfriend and stop playing around"
I told her im waiting for the right one to come along....though I told a small porky pie, because the right one has come along, but the question is, Am I Right For Her?
I think in due time I may live up to her expectations but what's going to happen between us during that time?
This situations reminds me of some lyrics from "Chasing Pavements" By Adele :
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?Ive bought a pull up bar though. So now im going to become the chinese arnie....just gimme some time!
Yeh i ran outta things to say ^^ Im going clubbing tonight, one thing that has been recurring in my mind is if ill be able to lift my hands up at 360 and still sing with all my heart and praise Him even if I know that I done something I shouldnt have the night before?
Hmmm...
Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars
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| In Time, I can only pray, that I wont be a boy of God, but a Man of God.
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| And here I am again, bloggin like I do with grammar mistakes and attempts to make my life sound interesting ^^
Anyways, Momemtum 2009 was one of the greatest parts of my summer. There was nothing like sleeping on a hard patch of grass (which resulted in funky shoulder ache for the duration of the trip), waking earlier then I had all summer, for 5 days in a row (shock/horror/gasp!) and fighting for food.
But attempts at dry humour aside. The trip really showed me how wonderful and great God is. This was mainly due to the awesome atmosphere, the fact that there were 3000+ people under one roof praising God as hard as they can. And they wern't ashamed. God revealed himself to everyone 4/5 nights in a row by healing the people who needed His love. I don't know if they were healed for long term or for short but he gave them only a fraction of his awesome power and they were healed.
Personally. I didnt feel a thing. No matter how hard I prayed and continued to watch inviduals randomly start crying or sounding like they had an insanely bad stomach ache, or hearing a dude who sounded like he was giving birth, I didn't feel God's presence touch down on me.
However. At one point the speaker (mike something) asked people to come forward who felt like they had been burdened by something to come forward and be prayed for. And instantly I felt a heavy feeling in my chest, and knew that I just had to go out there. I was prayed for. I didn't cry, I didn't make sounds of an elephant giving birth. But I did feel better afterwards, and felt like I had let go.
But maybe nothing was bad enough that I needed to be healed. Or maybe I didnt fully open up. Or maybe my heart was still hard. I don't know.
I enjoyed getting to know people a bit more, though I didn't enjoy spending 5 days with certain people, though i know that some people felt the same about me. So if any of those people are reading this, and I may have been a bit much for some people, I'm really sorry. And I'm trying to work towards NOT being the group clown lol.
So just one thing one girls, because y'all know I have to write something about girls. I'm going to try and stop looking. And just get along with my life. and if anyone comes along or I feel that the time is right then maybe something might happen.
Not only that, but I decided to stop drinking unless its one special occasions and I've decided against having the odd social smoke (I blame rob for offering my cigarettes at times whenl I was drunk and not giving a shit about anything any more).
UNI1!
Yes, it seems to be coming together at a snail's pace crawl but its getting there. Student loans n shizzle should kick in in about 5 weeks time and Ive sent off other forms. So the only thing left is Accommodation. Unfortunetly I got rejected for residence in Halls so I must look for a place to lodge/rent. That 1hr n 30mins commute will kill me so I most definitely need to start flat/room hunting for sure.
I don't know what this year will hold. I don't know what will happen. But I know it's in God's hands. So it'll somehow work out. As long as I don't go n fuck it all up lol.
And
You know when you wonder if someone's thinking about you cos you're thinking about them. But you know they aren't?
But for some reason, for some stupid reason that you've somehow convinced yourself is logic, you think they they might have a slither of attraction towards you. All because of that minute bit of contact, or because you're talking to each other more than you used to, or because you make eye contact by accident.
But the sad truth is that, sometimes, just sometimes, you have to look at things through a half empty glass of water, if you don't want the disappointment to feel greater than it already is.
A few verses from Love Came Down By Ben Cantelon that spoke out to me more than other verses from other songs were these ones -
"I found a love, greater than life itself,
I found a hope, stronger and nothing compares.
I once was lost, but now I'm alive in you.
And love came down and rescued me,
I thank you, I thank you,
I once was blind but now I see.
I see you. I see you."
The words spoke out me me because for a long time, namely throughout my teens and colleges years I was so out of touch with Him. But he brought me back :].
And I must admit, I did shed a tear or two singing these words at big top ^^
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